Team Jakeward!

I'm not a fanatical fan of the Twilight series, although I know and respect many.

I've seen the first movie and have not read any of the books. That was all my knowledge base on Edward, Jacob and Bella. Well, that and the many conversations I heard as my co-workers talked and discussed their lives as if they were real, living, breathing people...or vampires and werewolves...either way, I enjoyed the conversations and loved seeing the passion of reading coming back into the lives of those around me.



Then last night we get a call from some friends who secured tickets to the premier of "New Moon" at midnight in Plano and could Darbie and I go with them? Of course we can. Darbie is a huge fan of the series and I am a huge fan of making memories with the ones you love, so "Let's go!"

It was crazy, fans everywhere with homemade t-shirts, boxed meals, books, computers etc. Needless to say, it was not their first rodeo!

The two adults in our party sat on one side of the theater while Darbie and her friend sat on the opposite side. He and her talked for hours while we waited for the movie to start. Darbie started to look like the sandman was sprinkling dust on her until the show started. Then her and all the other fans were engaged.

As I watched the movie, I slowly started to get sucked into Forks, or is it Fort, Washington? I don't know, but wherever these kids live, I was there with them. What an amazing movie. It made a fan out of this 40 year old woman!

As I sat there watching, I decided I am so Team Jacob!!!

Darbie and I had a long discussion about which team we were. She didn't understand why I was Team Jacob as she is full on Team Edward. The answer was simply this:

"Darbie, when I was your age, I sooooo would have been Team Edward. But now having had the experiences of my life and having gotten to know myself better, I am soooo Team Jacob."

She then asked me in her much wiser in her head than her chronological age way, "Why would you have been Team Edward at 14 and what made you change your mind? I mean, what is it about Edward that you would have liked at my age?"

I sat for a second trying to come up with words that fit the way I felt. I knew the answer but didn't know how to put it to words. We call that processing time. Darbie says I need one of those monitors on my forehead that the credit card machines have that flash "Still Processing". So after some thought I stated this as my wisest answer I could put to words:

"When I was 14, I would have loved the way Edward looks at Bella. I would have wanted someone to look at me that way. When I was 14, I would have been so attracted to the passion and basically the obsession the two of them share.

Now 25 years later, I just want protection. The way Jacob treated Bella, with the attention, protection and safety. He loves her deeply and he loves her as his best friend. They share passion, but it is secondary."

It is a dream...at least to me.

I am sure Darbie didn't understand how the more boring list was so attractive to me, someday she will...so for now she will love the vampire and I will love the werewolf and there will be one for each of us.